I had a long meeting today. I just listened to people arguing and discussing many issues. I had nothing to say this time. Well, nothing to say in every time. I am having a trouble with coming along with my colleagues. Probably because they all are older than me and have Masters and PHDs! My days aren’t similar. They’re very mysterious and even though I try to set a routine for myself, there is always a thing that occurs and changes everything. I wake up and get prepared for the day. I make my coffee and carry my mug to the car. I drink it while I watch people around me. they’re like everywhere. Each of them is going somewhere, reaching for something and think of something that could be different or maybe similar to what i usually think about. I enjoy the observation. I just love to see the people. their faces tell me a story. Every glance and every movement.
When I returned from work today, I was very upset over absolutely nothing. I was tired and hungry. In days like these, I usually like to reward myself with a delicious Burger King meal, Whopper. Not this time. I didn’t want to do that. My depression of the day, yes i have many types of depression in every single day, continued till 7 pm. After that it was all over. the reason is that I worked out at the gym for a whole hour. The best hour of this week I gotta say! as I ran my depression was releasing from my body and soul. With every breath! It was an amazing feeling. After the jogging, I had a class with the trainer, who was really adorable. Again, the whole twisted feelings vanished gradually. I basically not only got rid of those feelings, I got to boost my happiness.
I know that I am a very stressed person. I worry about anything even if it was so cheering. All I do is thinking negatively. I find something wrong in everyday and when something bad really happens, I think about it over and over again until I ruin every possible opportunity of being happy in that main day. So, I decided to shut up and never talk and nag about my life with my closest sisters and friends because it’s bad enough that I think about these things to myself. This was already tiring so I didn’t want to load the load! Working out really worked for me. I am thinking of having yoga classes too.
Hope I’ll keep swimming